Over burgers at Red Robin, my friend Devi told me her co worker is getting pressured to find someone. When I heard that I was like what? After all, it's not like you know when you're going to meet "the one" you're romantically compatible with in almost every way and want to marry like you know what color shirt you're wearing. Another friend of mine has said he was depressed before he met the girl he’s sort of/ kind of seeing.
I have been told to find someone. I have also been told it can wait.
I think that's why I walk the fine line of ambivalence.
But it made me wonder, why is it if we have noone it sometimes feels like we have nothing?
I like being able to go and do what I please without having to worry about someone else’s schedule but my own. I had fun just driving up to Leavenworth for spring break with my friends from school. I also like being able to talk to who I want to.
However, I also know there is no greater connection then that between a man and a woman.
I was wondering about all this when I got a blast from the past. The teacher’s assistant I called it quits with in April decided to text me two days ago. It went from how’s it going to asking me about something intimate and I'll leave it at that. It doesn't matter anyway because I ended up telling him that I couldn’t start things up again. If the texting continued I knew it would be more of the I want you in bed but I'm too busy for a relationship tennis match again. After the first match, I wasn't up for another game.
However, the text made me remember, what’s more important than if someone is interested in me or not, is what I think of myself. After all that’s the person I’m going to be in a relationship with no matter who else comes and goes in my life. I think that’s the real key to true happiness . :0)
I'll put in my two cents here, some people are happier by themselves and can deal with it as such (I think they tend to be business sharks), and then you have the romantics, who are easily depressed without someone in their life, and then you have the people who want someone, but don't care really about strong relationship connections and tend to be promiscious.
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