Friday, October 28, 2011

Turning a new leaf

Leaves are starting to fall from trees, it is getting cooler outside, Starbucks is starting to sell pumkin spice lattees and Halloween is 3 days away. Yes, fall is in the air. For me it meant getting back into theater. I got the part of Sarah Good in "The Crucible" at the warehouse theater. It was a success.:0) Now that the show is over, I have to pretend that I had a life outside the theater before rehersals started, and on November 3rd I am heading back to San Antonio, Texas. I have been wondering lately if moving back to Texas means that I have given up, failed , or something. I am definitely going to miss my life here. I am going to miss going to Manic Thunder Improv with my friends Melanie and Daniel. I am going to miss going to Subway with my friend Amanda and her kids. I am going to miss getting together for lunch with my friend Devi. I will miss getting together for coffee with Sandra. I am going to miss playing games with Becky, Bill and Crystal. I will miss going to bible study / game night with the thirdspace gang, working with Bev, and many other things. I would not mind staying in Washington, but I don't feel like I can stay here until something comes up. Plus,I don't think my current enviornment has really brought out the best in me. With four other people living in a one story house, space and money has become a real issue . My uncle and I are the only two who have jobs right now, and my grandparents are on a limited income, so they really don't have the money to support everyone, as much as they are trying to. I hate getting upset and fighting with my dad over little things, and not having my own room. I don't know what is going to happen to me once I get back in Texas, aside from the fact I will be living with my mom and our cat Silver. But, I hope by moving to a different state with a more positive enviornment, I will have a different state of mind.