Today I met up with Melanie and after coffee at Starbucks, we headed to E-nails where we got a manicure and pedicure . Yes, it cost $35 dollars to get everything done. But, when I got to put my feet in warm water, and they rubbed lotion on my ankles, I thought it is so worth it.
After I got home tonight, I ended up talking with Brian on the phone, and the first thing he told me was that he has a new girlfriend. The minute Brian told me that, I couldn't help but remember the last time I went into E -Nails was not too long after I agreed to go out with him.
After our conversation, being the overanalyzer that I am I couldn't help but wonder what happened to us? This past December, I was looking forward to going back to Ellensburg so I could finish school , and be with him. Now he has offically moved on, and I am still on the singles market. (For now anyway, after all circumstances like that always change. :0P) It's not that I want him to be unhappy. But, moving on after a break up has always been the hardest part for me. Even though Brian and I aren't together I'm still used to talking to him almost everyday, and, I will deny this in court, but yes it feels weird not having him try to get with me.
It feels like I tamed a horse, but someone else gets to ride it.
But instead of going down the poor me path, I will say hearing about his issues with marriage, and saying the "L" word (aside from making me feel like I am Carrie ,and he is Mr. Big from "Sex And The City," ) made me realize I want a man who is not afraid of those things. Yes, flings are fun , but finding someone who wants to build a life with you is another part of life, and I don't want to miss out on that when I meet the right person. Until then, it's nice to know for only $35 I can get a manicure and pedicure with my best friend weither or not I am in a relationship. After all, life's too short to be anything short of happy.
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